Bjork's "Debut" and the Age 27
Bjork's first album Debut just turned 30 recently, and I had a depressing, mid-life crisis thought about it. I'm now ten years older than Bjork was when she first wrote that album. I've been a fan since I was a kid and used to always attach a lot of importance to the age 27. I would think, "That's the age Bjork wrote Debut, so that must be the age when important shit happens."
If you're into spirituality, you've probably heard of the "Saturn return" that apparently affects people when they turn 27. I don't know if I believe in that, but I do remember my 27th year being pretty eventful. I met my husband, started traveling, pulled myself out of a career rut, met more friends. My life was very happy and active back then.
If anything, my 30s have been my sloth era. I'm very comfortable. I left the corporate world to become self-employed and now make the same amount of money I was making before while working fewer hours. I have way more money and free time. However, I don't really do anything with it. I listen to music, I daydream, I write, I get high. That's it.
At 37, I sometimes wonder if 27-year-old me would be disappointed at how much time I've wasted. I feel like I should've at least written one manuscript by now or have published at least one short story. But that path is difficult, and I seem allergic to difficult things lately. It's as if I'm incapable of crawling out of this complacent, comfortable nook I'm in.
And yes, I know there's no time limit to success, but at the same time, isn't there? I keep feeling like I'm not ready, but will I ever be ready? Makes more sense to just jump into it and see what happens. If you have ever actually listened to Debut, you'd know it's one of her weaker albums (in my opinion). But I guess the important part is having the courage to start.